Failure

Never in my life I would've thought that I would fail an exam. I know I'm not the smartest of the bunch, but I always thought I was smart enough.

Apparently I was wrong.

It was a Friday afternoon. We all rushed to AAD to get the results. I was so reluctant walking in, I should've realized that something is going to go wrong. I opened the slip, and my heart just dropped. C-. Fail. I've never gotten a C- in my life. But the thing was, I kept calm. My housemate was there, I could see that she was shocked with my result too, but she too kept calm. Everything is alright. It was just a piece of paper. No one cares. It doesn't mean anything right?

Right?

That Afternoon itself, me and my another housemate went back to her hometown. I could see that she was trying so hard to cheer me up, but I didn't know why she felt the need too. I was fine, I swear. It was a great weekend, she has so many cousins, I was so happy for that three days.

But things only went downhill when we came home. When I closed my room door, I realized that I wasn't fine. And so it began, I've never cried that much in my life. I cried for a week. Every night was torture. Everyone kept telling me that the result didn't matter, that I'm smarter than that. That I'm smart.

For once in my life, I didn't believe them. I didn't believe myself.

I changed after that. Many people told me that I've changed. I don't answer as much questions at the wards anymore, I was so scared to present in case the lecturers tell me off for being dumb, I was doubting myself on a daily basis. You could say life wasn't going so well for me.

Things only got worse at night. I question myself a lot, do I belong in med school, can I pass the next exam, what if I'm not good enough, what will I tell SimeDarby. My parents would be so disappointed.

Before I know it, another exam was coming up. I was terrified. And to make matters worse, my examiner is the strictest of the lot, and it has been a while since he passed all his students. And apparently he's a racist. You can say that I was fucked.

The days were passing fast. I was reading as much as I can, asking help from everyone and anyone. And most of them were not supportive at all.

'I would be nervous if I were you Vani.'
'You should pray harder Vani.'

My housemates were really supportive though. I think they were afraid I would fail again.

It was the day of exams. Four of us were waiting for him outside. I was already a nervous wreck, and the others were making it worse. He finally came, gave me a patient and left. And let me just tell you, everything that could go wrong went wrong.

1. He only gave me 30 minutes instead of 1 hour.
2. The patient he gave me was one from the critical unit.
3. The patient was so weak and he was gasping while he talks.
4. Even then he was the most long winding person I've met.
5. And they were about to change his bed, while I was clerking.
6. His file wasn't there for God's sake.
7. His symptoms were all over the place, and he was unsure of his problem.

While I was about to pass out, his daughter came, like an angel and answered all my questions. I didn't even have time to rearrange my notes, Prof came and summoned us. That's it, I thought, I'm screwed.

Two of them went before me, Prof wasn't very pleased with them but they both passed. I wasn't sure if that's good or bad news for me. My turn came and I just gave him my best. I presented the best way I could, clearly and with a huge fake smile on my face. After that he asked me 7358 questions and he asked me to interpret a X-Ray. For some unknown reason, I answered everything and interpreted the best way I could. Prof just looked at me and he smiled. And that moment I knew I passed. I was smiling from ear to ear, while he marked my exam sheet. And then he gave me the paper. I wanted to cry when I saw it.

4/5

I just looked at him, I didn't believe it. He just looked at me and said, 'I don't like giving people good, and I only give it to those who deserve it, and you deserve it. Look at the paper, that is your results now, and I want you to forget your previous results. They don't mean anything now. Ok?'

I wanted to cry so badly, and I wanted to hug him. I didn't do any of it, so I just smiled and nodded.

I was so negative early that day, I couldn't believe how this day has turned out. And I was the only one to get 4 and compliments from him. There is just something about a world class surgeon, patting your back, looking at you in the eyes, and telling you that you're good.

And for the first time in months, I believed him. Things were good again. The rest is history.

Holiday Checklist

Yo crazy mofos, how's it going? I know what you're thinking. Two blog posts in two days? Has this world gone mad? No I'm just really really bored ok. Just shut up and read them ok. Jeez, can you like stop complaining? Honestly, I do so much for you and this is how you act towards me? What did I do to deserve this? 

Wait, whaaaat. That escalated quickly. Hahaha, I know it seems like I'm on crack but I swear I'm not ;) don't get fooled by the winky face, I really am not. I really, really wanna try though. Eh wait, whaaaat. No that's not what I meant. LOL this blog post is a mess, kinda like my life. Oh well.

Since it's the holidays, there are a few things I would like to accomplish because I don't plan to waste away my life, kind of like what I've been doing these days, so that in a few months, I can look back and think "Wow Vani, I'm proud of you, you didn't fuck shit up this time :)" Anyway, I've listed them down below.

1. Start sketching.

Ah yes. I used to sketch when I was younger, it used to be one of the things that made me happy -and that I was really good at- but I've stopped for a few years now. Some were pretty good that people offered me money for it. But no, I would never in a million years sell them. God knows I can't draw those pretty pictures ever again. So yes, I've bought a sketch book and I've started drawing a few of my friends. And the drawings turned out pretty great. Ok well, that was a lie. The drawings look like shit. Ah well, I tried lol.

2. Finish my book.

Oh yea motherfuckers I'm writing a book! Okay it's still in the draft stage-has been in that stage for 4 years- well don't blame me, momma's been busy ;) But you know what, I'm going to get it done. For all you fans out there, no I didn't mean my ceiling fans, the title of the book is 'Only You' and it's about this forbidden love between this two friends and I'm not willing to reveal the plot because someone might steal it. Hahaha, bitch please. Anyway, a friend of mine read it and told me the plot is pretty similar to Brokeback Mountain. I mean, yeah some part of it but that's not my fault. I really love that movie ok. It's a masterpiece. And gay Jake Gyllenhaal is so hot, he can lick my balls anyday. I mean whaaaat. I was just joking. No I'm not.

3. Clean my room

Oh god, my room is as dirty as a whore's vagina at this point. Hahaha that analogy cracked me up I'm so funny. As I type, I swear on my table there is a broken clock, my textbooks, my story books, an empty packet drink, a mineral bottle,some dirty laundry and the list goes on. And there's like 8 boxes lying around. Urgh can I pay one of you to clean this place? 

I can't think of anything else, that was a short list. As short as my ding-a-ling. Oh well, I'm an underachiever and that's a known fact. I'll update this shit once I can think of anything else to do. Probably not. Oh well, I guess this is it for now. I know, I'll miss you too. I'll see you again soon babe, and I'll be thinking of you every second when we're apart :) <3 

Uncertainty

My finals ended about a week ago. I guess I should be relieved, I mean isn't that what you normally feel after an exam? but I'm not.That was by far, the worst exam I have ever sat for. Even my driving test went better than that, and we all know how that turned out. 

How do you sit back and enjoy your holidays when the thought of possibly failing your exams linger at the back of your mind?

I had a conversation with dad yesterday. I let my guard down, and I wasn't really thinking about what I was saying and I accidentally told him that I might fail. A normal father would calm you down, reassure you that it's okay to fail. He might even hug you afterwards.

But not my fucking dad. He started scolding really loudly -some might call it yelling- that how can I even fathom the thought of failing, That my one and only job in the world is to study and I can't even do that right. That I have to pay my own exam fees if I fail. What's so hard about that? I'll just be a prostitute hah

But honestly, I have the most un-supportive parents in the world. Throughout this 2 and a half years, not once I complained about the hardship of Medicine because I know my parents will laugh and ridicule me about it. I know it sounds like I'm an ungrateful child, I agree that my parents have done a lot for me. They've been great guardians but I'm not sure if they've been great parents. 

One good thing out of all these is that I know exactly how to raise my children. Doing the opposite of what mine did.

Back to the topic of uncertainty, I'm pretty uncertain about my future. Results will be out in 2 days. I'm not sure if I can handle retaking the exams. I don't think I am emotionally capable of that. And I'm not ready to give up this carefree lifestyle I have going on at the moment. I should have studied harder damn it.
I'm hoping for the best but I'm prepared for the worst. 

Best of luck to all of us.

Lunch @ Garibaldi Italian Restaurant & Bar, Bangsar Village

Me and a few friends of mine decided to treat a girlfriend of ours to some good Italian food around the Bangsar area as Italian food is her favorite. After some research, the name Garibaldi's came up so we've decided to give it a try. It took us around 30 minutes to get from Bukit Jalil to Bangsar Village. Once you're there, the restaurant is pretty easy to spot.

The entrance of Garibaldi's. It is a restaurant plus bar. Since we went around 12pm, no one was really at the bar. Apparently, the place is very lively at night with the crowd and music. Must come here at night one of the days.

The waiter was very nice and patient, I must say. We took so long to order because the menu was so overwhelming - in a good way of course. We opted for the three course meal, but Garibaldi's have different courses you could try. Take a look at their website (below) to take a look at their menu. The ones we tried were:

Appetizers :             Bruschetta / Pumpkin Croquette/ Potato Wedges

                                                             +

Main Course :      Chicken Scallopini /Chicken Parmigana/ Lamb Shank /Grilled Salmon

                                                             +

Dessert:                  Signature Apple Cake/ Panna Cotta/ Chocolate Pavet

The interior of the restaurant is very brightly-lid and very cozy. We all ordered fruit juices and the drinks came pretty fast. The food took about 20-25 minutes which isn't so bad. 

The interior of Garibaldi's.

From the upper left to bottom left : Lamb shank, Grilled Salmon, Chicken Scallopini and the Chicken Parmigiana. It tastes as scrumptious as it looks!

The Bruschetta, it's a like o toasted bread topped with tomato and etc. It's amazing how a few simple items can make something so delicious.

The Pumpkin Croquette. Simple and tasty.

The lamb was incredibly tender, but the serving was a little big for my liking. The mash potato was a bit bland but still, an amazing dish.

The Panna Cotta. This was so yummy, I wished they served it in a bigger portion.

The chocolate Pavet. The strawberries were a little bit sour, but the pavet was good. Might have been way better if the strawberries weren't so sour.

Overall, I would say it was a good lunch and my friends really enjoyed it. The price totaled up to around RM 30- 40 per person which isn't too bad compared to other Italian places I suppose. I'll definitely come here again,.preferably to try their alcohol. LOL

Ratings: Environment  8/10

                        Food  7/10

                        Price   7/10

For more info, head up to www.garibaldi.com.my  Leave me a comment for any inquiries. Thank you!

The End Of The World

Today is the 20th of December 2012. And according to the Mayans, tomorrow shall be the day where the human apocalypse happens. There are mixed feelings about this. Some people are sure that this is true, and in attempt to make their last night count, they're out partying the night away. I was even invited to an 'End Of The World' party but I thought it was such a ridiculous idea for a party, so I ditched it and I'm at home blogging about it. Ironic much. And there are some people who just don't give a rat's ass and they're just continuing with their lives.

Where do I stand, you may ask. Or you might not. But I'm going to tell you anyway.

When I first saw that God-awful movie '2012' I thought this is such a stupid movie I can't even. This movie is wrong on so many levels. Firstly, how is it that John Cusack (whatever his stupid name was in the movie) survived every single catastrophe that was  happening around him, in a freaking limo. Secondly, what the movie was trying to tell us is that if you're rich, even you can survive the apocalypse. And to this I say, what the F***! It's called an apocalypse for a reason, you dumb-twat! No one survives an apocalypse! Thirdly, who the heck are Mayans and why are we listening to them? This makes no sense!

But that was what I thought when I was 18. So young, so naive.

Now I'm 21. Of course, I have a much more mature mind set. So you're probably wondering if I believe in the end? I didn't. Right until precisely a week ago. So what made me change my mind?

Firstly, I was watching a documentary where a group of scientists discussed the possibility of the world ending tomorrow. After about 2 hours of discussion, the verdict was it's highly possible! What! I was so flabbergasted by this. Of course I have to believe the scientists, being a man of science myself. But I tried to brush it off. Oh well. 

Then I wasn't feeling very happy about this whole thing so I did some research. Typed it on Google, just like everybody else would. And after a few hours of reading numerous articles and blogs, I was convinced. I was going to die. Then I realised I haven't done anything with my life. How pathetic. I was going to die a virgin. Ha-ha. I'm sure I'm not the only one. *wink*

But now, when the end seems so near, I don't think it will end. More like I hope it won't end. I mean, I know the Earth wasn't meant to last forever. But that's the thing, nothing lasts forever. We are all going to die and that's the inevitable truth. So that doesn't mean we have to sit and cry about it? No. It's not about the destination (which is probably coffins and cemeteries lol) it's about the journey. And the journey is what makes life amazing. So as long as your heart keeps beating, you're alive and be grateful about it and for God's sake, quit whining

That's what I think, even though I might be so wrong. Let's just see what happens tomorrow :)

New Year Resolutions

2012 is coming to an end in about 12 days. Unless the apocalypse happens on the 21st and kill us all.
It's a good thing, everyone always looks forward to a new beginning. Let bygones be bygones and start over. That's the magic of The New Years. No matter how much you screw up 2012, you get to start all over again on the 1st of January. And like every single human being in this world, I too have a few things I would like to accomplish during 2013, you probably would've guessed that by the title of the blog. Unless you're a moron., if you are, you would probably enjoy my blog.

1. Be a nicer person

I'm not saying I'm a bitch or anything, but the world could do with more nicer people. In all my existence, 2012 is probably the year where I got angry the most and lashed at people. I should probably get that under control. I lost some friends along the way, but that isn't how life should be. It should be all sparkly and glittery, with double rainbows and unicorns. LOL

2. Smile more

I smile and laugh a lot. Like probably a little too much, sometimes even at my own jokes. I'm not crazy.
But in this bitter, miserable world, isn't it nice to have a few laughs? Smile at a stranger maybe, that wouldn't be creepy at all. Even if you're sad, always smile, because you'' never know who is falling in love with your smile.

3. Hug more

Ah yes, my friends know I hate hugging. I don't even hug my parents. But sometimes when you're down, a hug could make it all better. So from now, I'm gonna hug all my friends. Yes, every single one of you. Unless your boobs are as big as mine, then you know we'll have an awkward moment there but oh well. A friend of mine once told me I look like Oprah, so a big cuddly hug from me can cure all your problems!

4. Take care of myself.

Jesus, I'm probably the worst doctor-to-be ever, I never do anything to take care of myself! Most of the times I just fall asleep at night before brushing my teeth because I'm so fucking lazy but that all has to change.
 I'm going to eat healthier and exercise more. Maybe not like a marathon, should start with more badminton or something fun like that.

5. Be a better medical student

I'm probably the worst medical student alive. Yes, I get through exams pretty well but that isn't what the Medical line is about. I should be constantly reading, sharing facts with my colleagues lol I said colleagues
and enriching myself with new exciting information. Instead, I sit with my laptop all day and watch re-runs of The Big Bang Theory. That shit has got to stop. All my friends are so hardworking, why can't I be more like them?

6. Spend more quality time with my friends and family.

 I spend a lot of time with them, so I want to emphasize the word quality. Because I'm the queen of crap, I crap a lot to my friends and family and we all end up laughing most of the time. But life isn't about crap. It's about all the meaningful conversations and heartfelt expressions of feeling and all that shit. So from now on, say something meaningful to each other.

7. Pray more

Ah yes, I used to be religious believe it or not. Now I rarely do it. I don't know what happened, life maybe got in the way. But this must change. He has always been there for me, so it's about time I give Him my thanks. And I should probably read The Bible more. I used to read it everyday last time. Damn, Vani you became bad to worse.

8. And lastly, blog more

Hahaha. I only blogged 6 times this year. I always wanted to be like a food blogger, I probably should. I went to eat at some fancy places before, might as well blog about it. And instead of yelling at people, I might as well yell here.

So that's it. My New Year Resolutions. I hope I can do all of these. Hope is such a beautiful word isn't it? Let me know what you want to accomplish in 2013! Till next time.

                                                                                                                                                  Love, Vani

Life is too short.

Life is too short to do things you don't like.
Life is too short to remove the USB safely.
Life is too short to follow all the rules.
Life is too short to hurt the ones you love.
Life is too short to neglect your parents.
Life is too short to be studying all the time.
Life is too short to not try something new.
Life is too short to only do things you're allowed to.
Life is too short to not chase that special someone.
Life s too short to be on a diet.
Life is too short to be saving money.
Life is too short to be sitting around at home all day.
Life is too short to be taking your friends for granted.
Life is too short to be focusing on the little things.
Life is too short for not asking sexual references.
Life is too short to not express your feelings.
Life is too short to not make plans with your friends.
Life is too short to be angry with your parents.
Life is too short to be afraid of new things.
Life is too short to regret what we could've done.

What I mean is life is short. No matter if you die at 18 or you die at 80, life is short. Don't regret not  doing something you always wanted to do because other unimportant things get in the way.

50 Shades of Fucked-Upness

I might look calm but in my head I would've killed you 5 times.

I know that's a pretty common saying but hell yes, how true it is. I'm not sure if it's my age or my hormones, anger seems to be pretty common for me these days. And yes, I blame it on the raging hormones. Haha.

It's just that I'm always so smiley people think I don't get angry, when in fact I do. A lot. And when I get angry, I start building up all these scenarios in my head. And they're pretty violent if you ask me.
The most common scenario is me beating the shit out of the people who are annoying me. Adding a hammer to the picture helps too. It's very gratifying really, even if it's only in my head.

That doesn't bug me actually. What really bugs me is that sometimes I feel like whacking small children too. The more annoying they are, the more I want to slap their faces repeatedly. I feel bad for my child already. I don't believe that violence is the answer to anything, but I just can't help myself.

I've been into the whole '50 Shades' thing recently and I'm quite obsessed to be honest. And it made me wonder, am I a Dominant? Like Christian? Hell no I'm not into BDSM, at least I hope I'm not, but I can really relate to him when he whacks people for his own pleasure. I've never hit someone really badly before, but I really want to. Is that weird? Am I the only one who feels this way?

I guess there's only one way to find out. The next time someone cross me, I'm going to beat that person senseless. 

Okay I'm joking, I'm not THAT violent.

TIME

Our life is made up of time. Our days ae measured in hours, our pay measured by those hours, our knowledge measured by years. We grab a few quick minutes in our busy day to get a coffee break, we rush back to our desks, we watch the clock, we live by appointments. And yet eventually time runs out and you wonder in our heart if those seconds, minutes, hours, days, months , years, decades were being spent the best way they possibly could. Sometimes, all you gotta do is scream 'STOP!' , look around, rearrange the order of a few things and continue on.

No news is good news.

No news is good news.

Hi there. It's been months, or years since I last wrote anything here. I would say life was pretty intense and I was pretty busy, but if you were my reader from the beginning, you would know that I'm just a lazy fucker. 

On a happier note, I'm on my holidays now, which means I passed my exams! *Hallelujah* It wasn't easy,but I did it. So another 7 semesters to go. Fml. So for now, I'm just lazying around, visiting all the shopping malls and buying nothing and spending all the money that I don't have. I'm just waiting for August to come because August will officially be 'The Month of Fun!' with my friends. I'm just worried that they'll blow up all my cash, but I don't mind. I can eat instant noodle for the whole September if I have to.

To summarize my previous 6 months I'll just need three words. EAT. SLEEP. STUDY. Yeap, that's probably it. It's pretty sad but that's what I signed up for. I shouldn't complaint, life isn't that bad though. I've met new friends and grown closer to my old ones. I think I've grown as a person, literally and I'm just a happier person now. Thumbs up for happiness!

I also hit the big 2-1 last May. People might say it's a milestone but I don't feel any different. I just spent the whole day eating at all kind of place with all kind of people. But the highlight of the day must be when my dad gave me the new iPad. I was jumping for joy literally that night, but now I realized it's just making my life miserable. Yes, it's Retinal Display and all that shit, but I have to wake up every fucking day and feed my horse, and update my Apps and just doing all kind of things I don't have to do. At least I don't need to on my laptop anymore.

Sooo that's it for now. I'll try to update my blog regularly. My *6* subscribers would definitely love to hear more from yours truly. So take care, and I'll write soon. Or not 

P.S. I would attach some pictures here, but they're all in my phone, and as ya'll know, I'm a lazy fucker ;) 

Mother of God.

Dear Mother of God indeed. I didn't update my blog for months! To be honest ,I kinda forgot about it. And when I was googling myself (yeah I do that often) I realized that I indeed have a blog. Ahh so much for being a dedicated blogger.

Nothing much happened recently. Same old same old. Med school blabla, all that crap. I think this semester's gonna be hard, so I don't think I'll blog as often as I might like. It's not like I have a fan base out there. haha.

So adios people. I'll catch you later. Chiow. (Yes,I feel very Mexican today,Or Spanish. Whatever)

Oh man

Oh man.I have no time to blog anymore.And I'm just ssssssssssssoooooooooooo lazy.So I'm gonna stop a while and star again when I'm sad or pissed so it wouldn't take that long. :D So take care bitches!

I feel nauseated D:

I know what you're wondering,no I'm not pregnant.XD.And secondly,WHOAAA it's been super long since I last wrote here.So much for being a regular blogger :/ Anyway,I have been so busy lately with classes,I barely have time to do all the useless stuff I used to do(like blogging XP) But srsly,I feel so tired.I have been studying for weeks now non-stop and now I feel nauseated.All of us do.D: The thing is,you gotta do what you gotta do to get ahead even if it means stuffing your face with notes every single day.

But life isn't all that bad.Now I have like my own group of friends,FINALLY.The other day we were laughing at this one joke my lecturer said,and guess how long we were laughing,CLOSE TO 30 MINS!It was non-stop,I've never laughed like that in months and it felt soo good(eventho later I had mouth-ache).

I can't believe that one whole semester is going to end,so fast.X( I'll change some groups that I've bonded with these past months.Well;there's always new ones.Still,1st sem was something totally new,in a good way.And I'm looking forward for more laughter and good times with my friends,eventho the lectures get tougher,we shall get through it.:D

BLAHBLAHBLAH

OMG it's 3 weeks since I've blogged! @#^&^$% Sorry I was kinda busy.Nah I wasn't that busy I was just lazy I guess.Anyway,can you believe it?1 month since I've started uni.Pheuww~and still surviving.I don't know but the days seem to pass by so fast and I find myself doing the same thing every day.Wake up,take train,go IMU,take train back,do chores at home,sleep.LIFE SUCK.But no worries,tomorrow shall be the last day I'm taking train!YAY,coz I'm moving into my room in the kondo next week.Finally,no freakin long hours sitting in the train and draining my soul out anymore.Srsly,I feel like I'm dying in the train everyday.

Anyway,lecture's still okay.Manageable.Life's good and I have some nice friends.So that's good.I hope life will be okay after moving in near IMU.I mean I've always wanted to live by myself but now I'm a liittlllee reluctant.Hmph too late for anything now.So I guess that's it.I'll blog soon.Or not :/

First week in IMU

Wow thank goodness it's Friday!Time to catch up on my sleep ;p.Anyway,yeap I have endured one week in IMU and you know what,it was pretty awesome!I forgot how awesome it is to mingle with people.And in IMU,you'll meet people from all over the world!It's so effing awesome that I have friend all over the world now.:D And some always ask me which country am I from,and I'll be like 'Uhm,KL?' HAHA weird.

Anyway,now it's the orientation week till next week and it's been so crazy!You'll think that guys in IMU are smart and disciplined because they look so smart all the time but don't be fooled,they're barbarians in disguise!The seniors especially are crazy,don't mess with them haha but they're still cool.I'm in group 4 and our team name is 4rgasm 4rgy.Yeap,only in IMU you can have names like that.=) And in my group there's people from Brunei,New Zealand and Myanmar,they're so cool!I love my group but sometimes they start speaking Mandarin(the Chinese ones) and all of us will be like seriously blur.LOL

And the other day we had Dress Code where we need to put on this stage show and yours truly was a narrator so I didn't do anything embarrassing.Haha We had to perform X-Men with 'It's My Life' by Bon Jovi.My team did a great job seriously,but I thought my narrating sucks,still they said it was good.Lolz.We practiced for hours and it paid off.Yay eventhough I reached home at 1,it was worth it!

Ultimately,1st week had been great but I really hate travelling by train especially during peak hours coz my classes finishes at 5.And the shoes OMG I can't stand it!But anyway,I've already found this place at this kondo near IMU and I'll move in soon.Kesian my parents but finally I get to live alone!YAY partay here I come!;p

My days are up.*Gulp!*

Yes,it's true.It's hard to digest but my awesomely-free days are gone.I know this day will come but still why is it so hard?If only I could turn back time*in Cher's voice,haha*This life is way too sweet,of course it wouldn't last long.

Two more days that's all I have,Everyone keep telling me that I should be excited and that this will be the time of my life.Ahhh...I doubt that.Not only that I'm 0% excited,I also forgot to revise.Yes.forgot as in an accident.:D So now I'm going to university as a dumb,unenthusiastic black girl.Wonder how things will work out.Hopefully it will coz I'll be spending 2.5 bloody years there.Damn,life sucks.

Anyway,I'm gonna just enjoy the bits of freedom I have.Today I purposely woke up at 12pm just because it would be my last day to sleep in.Goodbye freedom,hello snobby rich kids who don't know what to do with your money.Yeap that's right.So adios and if I don't blog again,high chance is that I committed suicide coz life sucks.

My mom :D

Okay,I know I'm not one of those people who have always been on good terms with my mom,When I was younger,we were not even close to begin with.She used to shout and scream at me all the time.Fortunately,things turned for the better and me and my mom have this awesome bond now.It feels great to be close,sharing everything.Used to feel like I'm worthless,now I feel wanted.

These past few days,me n her are on this crazy shopping frenzy for my formal clothings for U next month and for her as well ;p So even though I hate shopping,it had been fun!Eventhough we kinda splurged these past few days*by splurge I mean realllly splurged* it was fun mother daughter bonding time.I know she have not been feeling well but she still took the effort.:)

That's the thing about mums,they'll do anything for you,and she always knows exactly what I want.My stomach will stat grumbling and immediately she'll whip up something to eat.Yeah,she does whip it real good.;p

So mum,I just wanna say thanks for everything,and I feel weird saying this but man,I love you!How can I not love you after you buying me that Marks and Spencer shoes? :/

The 2011 Malaysian Open!

OMG last Saturday was the most awesomest day man.I actually went to the Malaysian Open at Bukit Jalil!All thanks to WY who had that brilliant idea.We've always loved badminton,from those form 5 days where me n WY rush home to change and grab our rackets,till these days where we have badminton sessions every week.I can say that badminton is kinda the only sport I play,and is moderately good at.LOL!

And what's even more awesome,we had front row seats babey!The best seats in town and we had this huge Malaysian flag we used to wave during the Malaysian match.The first few hours was fun and exhilarating,but we were pretty bumped that there's only one match with a Malaysian player,the last one.But some matches was awesome,especially those with the Danes.They're totally hot and funny,SKY has a crush on one of them ;p

Then at the last match,when LCW(Msian's pride and glory) came out to play,the whole stadium roared and guess what,he won and barely broke a sweat.It was crazy!My mom said she saw me on TV but my dad said that he can barely see it.:( I saw myself on the screen so I don't care.HAHA.Anyway,it was the best day spent with the best people.I hope we can do it again next time!

There he is!OMG he's fuckin awesome!We <3 u!

Can't I drive without a license?:/

Heyyyyy.Wanna know something?I'm almost 20 and I don't have a license.Laugh if you want,I have my reasons.First,I want a car before I'm gonna take lessons.(That totally ain't gonna work) and second,I think if I start driving,I might wipe out some of the world population,including myself.It's just that I'm so uncoordinated,I can't imagine myself behind wheels or driving other people.*if there are any courageous people,lol*Anyway,I realised I'm getting so damn old so damn fast,so I enrolled for driving lessons last week.

So I went for my first KPP class the other day.I heard people say it's fucking boring but I had a pretty good time actually.Kinda weird,because I've never attended like a class or lecture in 8 months,so..that was new.It was also conducted in Malay,which I've rarely spoken in years,so that was weird too.So much for being a Malaysian.

So my test is this week.I kinda think it's freakin easy looking at the sample questions,but being me,you'll never know what'll happen.Hopefully,I'll past.*fingers crossed*Actually,I can't wait to start driving already.I saw some students driving that day and I'm like thinking 'Gosh,I really hope they pay a lot to the instructors!'Almost all the cars were banging here and there.Sigh~Anyway,let's all hope that I pass and then get a car for haven's sake!A Porsche or Ferrari would be nice....Till next time!xoxo

 Looks like probably something I'll do if I'm driving.HAHA!

Uh-oh!

Yeap,uh-oh indeed.After months and months and months of lazing around,my intake is just one month away.Oh no.Honestly,I don't remember at all how I spent it.Well,that's obvious because my brain is all dried up and I'm like a dumb idiot now.

  I will never regret these glorious months I've had.It was awe-some!But now I feel time is running out.I have tons to do and no time to do it.And I was always postponing taking my driver's license.(Yes.I'm 19.And I can't drive.Ha-ha)But if I don't do it now,I don't know when else.Probably go sign up for lessons tomorrow.Probably.Lolz

  And I haven't read up on my Bio yet.I have 5 Bio books at home,with dust bunnies hoping all over it.Darn it,I'm so freakin lazy!Tell me why I'm going to Med school again?Sigh~Only God can help me.Anyway,I'll be living my life now,with the little happiness that I have but you know what,I'm gonna fuckin enjoy myself till it's my last day of freedom!And when that day comes..oh well,I'll deal with that shit later.Lolz

Tell me bout it kitty?Sigh~