I might look calm but in my head I would've killed you 5 times.
I know that's a pretty common saying but hell yes, how true it is. I'm not sure if it's my age or my hormones, anger seems to be pretty common for me these days. And yes, I blame it on the raging hormones. Haha.
It's just that I'm always so smiley people think I don't get angry, when in fact I do. A lot. And when I get angry, I start building up all these scenarios in my head. And they're pretty violent if you ask me.
The most common scenario is me beating the shit out of the people who are annoying me. Adding a hammer to the picture helps too. It's very gratifying really, even if it's only in my head.
That doesn't bug me actually. What really bugs me is that sometimes I feel like whacking small children too. The more annoying they are, the more I want to slap their faces repeatedly. I feel bad for my child already. I don't believe that violence is the answer to anything, but I just can't help myself.
I've been into the whole '50 Shades' thing recently and I'm quite obsessed to be honest. And it made me wonder, am I a Dominant? Like Christian? Hell no I'm not into BDSM, at least I hope I'm not, but I can really relate to him when he whacks people for his own pleasure. I've never hit someone really badly before, but I really want to. Is that weird? Am I the only one who feels this way?
I guess there's only one way to find out. The next time someone cross me, I'm going to beat that person senseless.
Okay I'm joking, I'm not THAT violent.
